Monday, June 21, 2010

A total ECLIPSE of the heart...

Oh... what? Eclipse comes out on June the 30th? No, of course I do not have a mental countdown until I see it at the midnight showing. Or maybe I dooooooooooo. But seriously, I don't feel like there has been any hype about this one at all. Not that it matters, because I am hyped for the third installment of the Twilight series to come to the silver screen. Why you ask? Well if you must know, here are the top three reasons why I LOVE TWILIGHT!!! Number 1: Most people can relate to some part of the story 2:Because no matter the age of the woman watching, they all still giggle when Jacob takes off his shirt... hilarious! And 3: BECAUSE JACOB TAKES OFF HIS SHIRT!! Arrrrooooooogah! Haha. Anywho. Back to the point of this blog. There will be some kind of deep thought now. As I was laying outside watching the moon rise above the trees tonight and enjoying some much needed peace and quiet, I had time to think about some things. Nate dropped by the house while I was laying out there and asked me what I was doing and what was on my mind. I don't know about the rest of you, but I rarely wish to share what is on my mind (and no it is not because most of the time it is inappropriate... or maybe it is...haha). Expressing myself is much easier in writing, and generally when I do this I keep my thoughts to myself. This blog is the only big exception to that rule. But I think a lot of the time I don't share what is on my mind because I don't know if other people will get it.
For those of you who have been living under a rock and have not read the Twilight series, Edward (Bella's main man and mindreader extraordinair) cannot read Bella's thoughts. But at the end of the last book, Breaking Dawn, she finally finds a way to allow him to do so. He gets to read her mind, therefore truly understanding what she means. What people wouldn't give big bucks to be able to do that?! How much easier life would be if we were able to see things from other people's prospective.
Getting to the real point of what I was thinking about, sometimes I wish people could really get what I am trying to say. Not just get it, but that they would be able to experience something the way I do. A complete understanding. As I sat on the back deck listening to the deer traipse through the woods and looking at the stars, I felt like I had some profound thoughts. But when I tried to tell someone else about them, they did not seem quite so profound. I felt silly for thinking such simple thoughts were so deep. But truly some things in life you can never understand until you experience them for yourself. Some moments in life are so beautiful and so unique to you personally it is impossible to describe them adequately. No picture does it justice, no words are eloquent enough to describe it, and nothing truly seems to capture what you feel. I guess that is kind of how God's love is though. That's how truth and intellegence seems to affect us. I try to explain it constantly to people, or show them, but until someone experiences it for themselves they will never quite get it. I wish that I could just have people understand me or something I am trying to explain... but I guess until I become a vampire I will have to put that on the back burner. So, to summarize... sometimes I wish that people could just be in my mind for a second so that I wouldn't have to explain myself. I can write much clearer than I can orate (even though after reading this I am sure half of you have no idea what I am talking about), and maybe I will just start using a Speak & Spell for all my conversations with other people. The End.