Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Weezer Says It Best
So I have been having a bit of a dilemna lately. Isn't that how all these blog postings start? It's called, I am really sick of working and wasting my life on my job that bores me to the point of not knowing whether to attempt slitting my wrist with the plastic spoon in my drawer or not. (I did watch a documentary about prison the other day and prisoners who can create deadly weapons out of plastic utensils... but that is another blog post for another day.) Weezer sums it up well in the song Troublemaker. "I can't work a job like every other slob. Punching in and punching out and sucking up to Bob. Keep it on the up. I'm never giving up." Okay so I am not suicidal and I dpn't even have a plastic spoon at my desk. I have used them all for my contraband oatmeals in the morning. Work is not that bad, but I never know whether to scream, or cry, or throw up out of sheer disgust for my job. I can hear my mom saying in my head right now... Don't put so much energy into what you don't want, it just attracts it to you. Well I can't work more than 40 hours a week, so hit me with your best shot universe. But seriously, how do people do the same thing every day? Shift work is the most utterly ridiculous thing ever. I get so bored with the same thing every day. I know we have to have money to do things like eat, buy clothes, and provide our necessities, but I think I would have been happier in the olden days, farming, sewing my own clothes, and reading books and visiting with people for amusement. There are so many cool things we have the opportunity to do now that we have not had in previous times. Like traveling the world and making friends that are miles away. Or eating strawberries all year round. Taking a hot shower whenever we want or flushing a toilet. Awesome stuff, but I think I could give those up. My electric toothbrush on the other hand, I may have a rough time letting go of, or air conditioning... but anyway. The point is, I just don't get it. What's the big deal with money? What do I need it for? This capatalistic system we set up forces me to make money to feed myself and have a roof over my head, but what worth is it to me if I don't get to enjoy my life? I sit in an office, can't even see the outside all day long, and am too tired to go do something I enjoy afterwards. Doesn't this seem like a waste of life to anyone else? Part of me wishes I could feel comfortable with all this monotony. That I could be satisfied with doing the same boring thing every day. But I am not. I am searching for an escape. For some fun and adventure. If I didn't have such wonderful friends and family to take my mind off of how much I dislike 5 out of the 7 days in the week, I sincerely believe I would go insane. If I'm not there already. Aren't we here to have joy? I think I need a little more in my life. I know this means I need to look around and be grateful for all the things I have... I have a tendancy to say 'thanks for all these wonderful things, but...' and I need to be better. It's not really being grateful if you are still wanting more. So I will start a gratitude journal. That is the point of this post. Darcie says my posts are way too long or intellectual. So for the sake of my sister, now that you read this whole dang thing, I can wrap it up in two words. Be Grateful.
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I am currently reading the Tao of Pooh, you should check it out from your local library (and now sing "it's reading rainbow"...) I think you will like it. And your job does suck, that's why you need to find a new one - that's why Rhet's a teacher, because he loves it, we could be making a whole lot more money doing other things, but it's not worth all the money in the world to do a crappy job that you don't enjoy - hurry up and sell that farm so you can quit that job foolio. And find joy in the journey - maybe you can practice foreign accents while answering the phone, or work on your doodling skills, etc. That's all I got for ya!
ReplyDeleteI hate to say welcome to the club. But welcome to the club. Now it is even harder to get out of the club at least for a little while longer.
ReplyDeleteI have felt exactly the same as you on a number of occasions. Including on the job sucking the life out of you so when you aren't at work you don't have any desire to do anything.
I few things have helped me.
1 - Try not to focus on work. Work isn't your life. It is just something you have to do for now. Make your focus on things outside of work.
2 - Find something exciting to do outside of work. A class or something new and exciting to explore.
3 - If you are able to do things that aren't work related at work, like read or surf the internet then try and find things you can do daily. It will give more purpose to the day.
4 - Travel has really helped me. You can make the fact that you have to work for money turn into a source of income to help you travel. Also it gives you something exciting to do.
5 - If there is anything that you can do at work to make the work more satisfying then that will help. I have to find projects and things to do.
6 - You are lucky in that you are young and don't have alot holding you down. See if there is something you can do at night or on weekends in the field you want to be in. You might be stuck as far as paying jobs but you can work for free too! It will help build your resume.
7 - I just realized that you live like 5 mins from me now. That should make your month! I know it makes mine. :)
Okay so that was more then a few things. But you can't stop flow. "flow is flow"